SCREAMS it’s just always been a thing, tbh. I only date people that I have those certain feelings for, because I hate being led on, or used, and I would never wish that on some innocent person who had the unfortunate pleasure of falling in like with me, because it SUCKS. Plain and simple. It also saves me a lot of heartache troubles, because I’m not involved with so much drama of people, because I only like that one person - not the whole populous of my school like some people I’ve seen.
but ye sharky dude hugs ur face back tbh it kind of sucks that I have such a serious mentality, though. Had eye-openers when I was too young to even know what sex really was, but it shaped my character and morality - and that - that, I really like about myself. Sighs bc i am idealistic just like my muse, lmao. Actually - like I’ve stated on his account, before - a lot of his personality comes from me, personally. It’s just the heavier things.
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I really could give more fucks, tbh. The last anon asked me to describe how I feel about him, in an attempt to not be so harsh to him whilst having a bad time. I was describing how I felt, regardless if he reciprocates. I never set out to seek anyone’s validation on it.
Even if it doesn’t last as long as I’d like, there’s no time like the present, and I’m happy for his company, at this current moment. Unlike most people in high school - who only have their significant other for a month, at most - I actually have feelings for Brandon. Legitimate, caring feelings. I’ll always have those feelings, I think, even if something were to happen to change our relationship (which I hope nothing does, btw).
My only fear with expressing my raw feelings for him on tumblr, is that he can actually read it, lmao. I mean, this stuff can be perceived as “heavy”, but I really don’t think so. Like, I don’t want to wig the kid out, it’s only been 4 months, even if we have known each other for a long while.
He’s just the first person I’ve really liked in a very long time, and my feelings are whatever, tbh. Like, I’m not afraid to say how I feel, except if it’s directly to him bc no !!!! But yeah; I’m living for the now, and loving hard, because that’s what you’re supposed to do when you support and care for someone, regardless. Being with me is enough, on his part.
My parents were out for the weekend and he came over last Saturday night without their knowledge.
They found out because my step-brother, who was home, thought that they knew he was over, and he let it slip.
Like I said, though; worth it.